Day 8: If the River Dries Up/Falling

A close friend and avid-reader of my blog asked me today if I was worried that I would run out of ideas to blog about over the course of the next 357 days. And for a minute, I thought about it. I considered the idea–the idea of using up my "insightful epiphanies" and this blog flaming out before it had a chance to grow. Before I began blogging, I used to journal everyday. And it would not matter if I had absolutely nothing to say that day, I always found myself filling countless pages of anything–thoughts, ideas, nothing at all. I still journal frequently–not as much as I'd like though. My point is, and to answer this question, I don't think I ever could run out of ideas because I cannot and will never stop thinking. This quality about me is actually quite detrimental–I have a hard time stilling my mind. And so as long as my mind keeps going as it does, I should always have new ideas, new thoughts, new discoveries each day. As these things–these ideas, thoughts, and discoveries–are what make up experiences and experiences make up a lifetime. And so I think if we ceased to think, to feel, to discover, we would cease to live. I spent some time looking back at my past journal entries. I find it interesting to look at what I'm writing about now and compare it to what I was writing about then. See what's the same, what's different. I found this passage that I wrote, 

"In life we are always falling. The only time we stand on solid ground is in birth and in death. It is interesting to look at life as the vast space that lies between the bottom ground and the cliff where you stand at the beginning of your life. And the time spent free-falling in the air is our lifetime and what we do midair determines our experience. We can fall off the cliff with fear or completely free. But regardless, the end is the same. Whether you danced in the air or stared back at the ledge where you once stood, the end is still the same–ground.. death. There is no avoiding that. After all, gravity makes it impossible for us to fall up."

I wrote that over a year ago. And it's intrigues me to see how much I live like the latter–looking back at the cliff where I once stood. Believe me, I am trying. I'm really trying to let go. To "dance" midair. Because I know that it is the only way to fall before I die. 

The Apple Doesn't Fall Far from the Tree

DIY headband and t-shirt, Tights: Rite Aid, Shorts: American Apparel, Cardigan: Forever 21, Doc Martens

Close up of the shirt

While on the subject of falling, today's outfit has been entitled the classic cliche, "the apple doesn't fall far from the tree". This is in honor of the t-shirt that I wore today which was custom designed for me for my sixteenth birthday. For my surprise sixteenth birthday party, my mom and my good friend had planned a scavenger hunt party for me where everyone had to create a shirt that had a fact or memory about me. One of my friends who I ate lunch with almost everyday created a shirt with a stitched apple on the front and the words "...eats applesauce for lunch everyday at school" written around the it. Which is entirely true. My junior year, I had a food-obsession with those little applesauce packets you get at Trader Joe's. While I loved all the shirts I was given, this one always stuck out because of the detail and creative design. So I keep it in my closet with the rest of my clothes. This same friend also made me the headband I am wearing in the photo of the day. I don't see her much anymore, but when I wear this outfit I remember when our group of friends used to hang out at lunch altogether last year. I wore my favorite high-waisted shorts with black sheer tights and a yellow cardigan on top; Doc Martens completed the outfit. I love this outfit because it shows how you don't have to buy something new to make a nice outfit. You can create something or find an old t-shirt that once meant a lot to you and create something new out of it. It doesn't matter really. It's all in how you pair the piece with the rest of what you are planning to wear. Once school finally settles down, I plan on creating a bunch of new t-shirt creations that I will wear on the blog.

Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed it. Until tomorrow... goodnight.